hysteria

confused as of the moment, constant motion i feel

lost track of time, in despair i give in

left or right, there's no place to turn

i try standing still, off balance i spin

this too shall pass, for all are transitory

bear the moment, bear the pain

i tell myself - just a little more time

this flux i am in shall break its course

for when it seizes, i shall feel no remorse

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Just one of those moments again. As the saying goes though, this too shall pass. Eventually, it will. What scares me though is how apathetic I am becoming about dealing with things - personal shit is hitting me bigtime again. Life takes its course regardless how much i try to deny it to myself - it will not stop in general because i feel scorned and jaded. I will get around this for sure. Maybe not now but eventually, i will get there.